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2009-06-16T13:11:00.002+08:00

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2009-06-15T12:32:00.002+08:00

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Calefare

2009-06-11T15:58:00.005+08:00

v. downhearted like dk what -.-

whr'd you go

2009-06-09T02:28:00.002+08:00

25th Monthsary

2009-06-05T15:14:00.005+08:00

today's evening will be spent w AuntyWendy hmmz dinner & hopefully shopping. woah and hopefully i dont hav t wait till too late tonight.

2009-06-04T22:17:00.002+08:00

current fav [:

i wan a dream come true

2009-06-03T14:50:00.003+08:00

i keep losing money this week, tsk v suey ah. lost $10 at Changi Village cuz i went t play the shooting of balls w Andrew Jo and Mils ahaha should not be greedy i tell you or you will just lose all your money just like me lol Jo won a $4 and we took cab back t PasirRis (: oh yah and i just lost another $240 i didnt wakeup again for my driving lesson good game i wonder when can get license -.- so tiredz hmmz i is v lousy ytd night toh immediately the moment i reached home forget t remove makeup my face cui until cannot cui when i wokeup haha and and and i went t sleep w mum ytd and in the middle of the night i turn and saw her big face beside me, scare the shit outta me lol

dont read la

2009-05-30T14:03:00.003+08:00

1. i nearly fell off some cliff
2. i waited for some impt message till i feel like separating all my the phone parts t see whether it's faulty
3. i h8 menstruation v much
4. i knocked into my injured knee & the swelling never goes away -.-
5. i believe i shouldnt i dont know what t do
6. i dont want the money back, forever
7. i did everything i could because i owe you
8. imy

怎样的我才能让你更想念？

2009-05-28T21:57:00.002+08:00

"I remember those days, when we used to glance at each other and realize there's so much more to it. I remember those days when we smiled constantly. Remember those days when i didn't tell anyone how i felt so that i could keep all the joy to myself. Remember those days when you would whisper the sweetest words making me break into the stupidest giggle followed by yours. Those days when all i wanted was to see you smile knowing that you were saving 'em for me. Those days when i passed by you, and that was all it took to make me happy. Days when you called me on the phone just to hear my voice and I would do the same too. Those days when i didn't mind sharing my heart with you knowing that you would return yours back to me. Its like finding nemo, he disappears, his dad whom loves him so much he goes looking for him. Well its the same, lost you. But i'm never going to give up, because one day i know i will find you again. I hope i will find you again."

i fail myself, again

2009-05-28T20:59:00.005+08:00

hi
idk why i can only stay at the side,
yes the v. side hmmz mayb at the right bottom corner
):
i feel like some alternative
imagine you can easily 'Ctrl Alt Delete'
bye

DD

2009-05-23T21:30:00.004+08:00

hello, today is 23rd May

2009-05-23T21:01:00.004+08:00

the day when i act one strong one and said that we shall get separated i walked out of the room out of the house pretended that everything would be fine i can do w/o you, yes exactly 1 year back. a mistake i made and i still regret alot alot. what if i just held on while you went w monster what if i keep my calm and begged you t stay and not t go w monster what if we were never separated what if what if.. i saw fireworks the next night and sang Tattoo t you, but still you slowly walked further away from me.

hmmz ok 1 year alrdy everything's different alrdy phewww

anyway ive been a happy girl w an ugly humongous blue-black on my knee and almost everyone who sees it will go, "Ewww" HAHAHA

hur, trying t be funny

2009-05-22T11:21:00.001+08:00

i see you walking away i wish i dont recover

pls let this be a blessing in disguise

2009-05-19T13:58:00.002+08:00

i feel bad for not going t sch HAHAHA but well i'm on MC hmmz ytd night like party mann eat like some swine again lol but i'm happy though lol hmmz one more try one more try

knocked down

2009-05-17T15:24:00.002+08:00

ytd night is scary plus eggciting i thot i'm going t die within seconds i got knocked down flew a lil rolled t the kerb side and landed like over-turned tortoise. i'm glad i pushed yuwen away and luckily i only suffered from bruises all over my leg, back and a swelling knee that hurts like nobody business tsk tsk. quite a commotion i hate t say this but how can malays behave this way in this manner i suddenly feel we are so right t call them malay dogs? that malay female driver damn guailan i hope she gets her license revoked forever and ever. i got dad and mum so worried being sent t CGH A&E i got wheeled in my v first time dont know why kept trembling but ya i was angry sad excited a lil mixed feelings. DD and some others came when i was at 444 road side v glad t see her but ya it's not what i'm thinking afterall at least she came phew i only rmb i held her hands tight when she came t me

on the brighter side before i got knocked down, i was at Marina Barrage w brenda and yuwen we did busking again and sales was tremendously great i is v tiredz after the whole thing and and and i saw Cute when the performances ended v exhilarated! oh ya i see fireworks ytd! it was just above my head way up high v beautifulllll

tsk brenda didnt let me t work today later im so bored at home now my knee v pain sigh just my luck! and the paramedics cut open my MNG jeans t check my wounds oh thr goes my jeans lol and DD said my right leg swell like pig leg lol

Arts Festival

2009-05-15T23:09:00.004+08:00

my v. first face painting on my face :DDD

i tgt w brenda & yuwen was at the opening ceremony of '09 Arts Festival located @ Marina Barrage today just now not long ago :D but it rained and dampen our moods a lil but but we still did busking and enjoyed a wonderful performance after the rain stops. and and and i is like some superstar today, alot ppl took pictures w me lol even bangala took picture of me and they happily showed it t me lol popeyes for dinner at s'pore flyers area after the hard work, thr's more t come tmr and on sunday! hope i'll get good sales!

ive got loads of pictures t upload, t be continued for this arts festival...

hello, today is 13th May

2009-05-13T23:06:00.002+08:00

1 year back, the day when i started losing my everything
somehow it still lingers, how weird
imy a lil here a lil thr a lil everywhr

2009-05-11T18:23:00.002+08:00

mother's day celebration at aunty connie's place last saturday we had potluck session i prepare the appetizer cook Potato Salad i cooked is v nice heh i made mummy a flower balloon v budget but she likes it heh today i did something wrong v guilty and the sch send my parents my absent from school letter again omg good game

2009-05-08T23:13:00.001+08:00

you walked away too quickly, i couldnt follow thru

it's not what you're thinking

2009-05-07T20:09:00.004+08:00

i is worried i rushed back asap i'm glad you're fine i realized conversations were weird languages were not the same as before i admit my tears are just right flowing out soon when words were swear-ed those that i wont hear you say t me before but ok i manage t keep it back v much i walked away but walked back again oh my i felt bad walking away at first and i threw my temper again when i heard what i didnt like i slammed the door i think it's my first i wonder why i did that i'm really sorry actually hmmz the distances took is v silence i wanted t blabber like how i used t but i suddenly forgotten how t ok at least we smiled at the end w saying thankyou

A goodbye isn't painful,
unless you're never going to say hello again..

hello, today is 5th May

2009-05-05T11:27:00.007+08:00

my " ya make me happy " phrase, haha
2yrs back, 2yrs alrdy hmmz

did the same skipped school routine this morning, went back home when dad & mum went t work w the help of brother. felt damn uneasy about today felt as if monsters coming so i went t sleep until my two ppgs each sent me an sms. i told jo that today is 5th May so i didnt go t school and she said "5th May means holiday ahhh labour day alrdy finish leh" haha! i laugh out loud immediately. lol hmmz then van told me t take care, take xtra care because there's swine flu lol lol lol they are very lovely i tell you xoxo heh.

today i'm the luckiest
thankyou lord

DD

2009-04-27T14:32:00.003+08:00

2009-04-23T20:59:00.006+08:00

it's just the 4th day of sch, my bad habit is backkk i skipped school today :D i'm so glad dad and mum went t work early and w the help of brother i went home t sleep heh

i is very tiredz this week. sch, out, home, sleep. went t sch on Monday finally i met B, she's still the nicest t me hahaha. hmmz went around the sch other friends who saw me were like asking why am I in sch, saying when am I going t skipped class again lol their dream came true today! haha! Jessica came t look for me at Woodlands on Tuesday. she turn str8 and being girl girl alrdy! i is super very bery shocked! lol hmmz so dinner w her and we watched Handsome Suit, we managed t laugh our ass out, then Pasar Malam at CausewayPoint it reminded me of DD ok hmmz. did FYP in sch on Wednesday, couldnt met Jiaxin tsk is disappointed but managed t met Jodie for dinner in the evening fabulous evening lol saw ChinChin on the bus hmmz topics between us were limited alrdy. hmmz ok..

today i is lazy plus eggcited for the hairdo in the afternoon w Jodie, so I skipped sch lol gd excuse right, yes I know haha

friday tmr whr shall I go hmmz finally last day for the sch week woah

it's always like that

2009-04-19T22:10:00.003+08:00

few more hours t school i very dont like t go t school grr tsk how how how feel like as if i in kindergarten 1 i always cry when i had t go t school lol very upset very sad oh mann i had too long a holiday tsk tsk whr are you DD hmmz why no more encouragement lol hmmz ):

2009-04-17T21:53:00.000+08:00

finally took some time out and went t cut my hair heh i'm lovin' it darrel milstein was w me they then took me t krtc lan shop as i wanted t L4D like always i'm retarded in computer games managed t kill some monsters but L4D till damn giddy passed on t jordy t continue haha hmmz saw joshua he's so different alrdy had a small chat w him and realized his antenna very bery long and effective although he's in the States then lol met moses for like 20mins only? then zhilin for 20mins too off i went w milstein, met pui leng and his gf movie-d 17 again w them

All's Well

2009-04-16T22:30:00.005+08:00

this long Escalator that leads directly from Level 1 str8 t Level 4

i met my two girlies today like finally. everything's well & great :D they did their Manicure at e!Hub and then we proceed t Bugis's House of Steamboat for dinner & heart-t-heart session. extremely very bery fulling, we ate laugh talk for 2hours thr! HAHAHA. so we went jalan jalan into the new shopping mall beside Bugis Street it has got very bery long escalators and their toilets are like maze. heh. after our food had disgested for an hour, I brought them t hav some desserts at beside TanQueeLan Street. trained back Pasirris at 9.30pm woah

some very bery longz ago pictures :

My life would suck w/o You

2009-04-15T23:22:00.003+08:00

today very upset. super extremely. luckily DD came and i let out all i got t say. i like stupid only ok but dont know why very downhearted t the max..

2009-04-15T01:06:00.003+08:00

it's always wrong t say anything you're uncomfortable w, maybe just keep numb and keep quiet about everything. oh mann is this life, is this how it's suppose t be. good game. LEARN.

Quoted,
" It feels like i have to keep on running,
and if i falter, trip, fall and succumb,
even if it's only for a moment,
it catches up and saps away all my efforts.

I never stopped hopping that you'd come home,
but i did stop expecting it.
Because the hopping and knowing takes its toll on me,
and whether it is conscious or not, i eventually make the
decision to divide my life into half.
Before and after,
with loss being that tight bubble.
I can move around in spite of it;
I can laugh and smile and carry on with my life,
but all it takes is one slightest thought and reminder,
for me to be fully aware of the empty space,
at the center, slightly to the left.
A minor thing or another, and I'm back at square one.

I can't make it better,
can't rid the pain and suffering.
I feel helpless.

I don't quite know what to do with myself.
Seriously. "

exactly like what i wanted t say, always

2009-04-13T01:10:00.001+08:00

oh yay, Dad got me my new phone like finally heh

2009-04-11T22:51:00.003+08:00

8 more days t my terrible nightmare ): ni zai na li, shuo yao meet wo soon grr, wo yao shang xue le la, mei shi jian le ): hmmz i wasted my whole week again at Aunty Wendy's place w good food and good entertainment tsk went out anywhr and back t Sengkang for the whole week caught a midnight movie w Aunty Wendy, Yuwen & Brenda at Marina Square ytd we had Fast and Furious 4 i was very bery eggcited thru out the whole show how i wish i could drive like that woah HAHAHA. Brenda said it's named Fast and Furious becuz the cars are going so Fast and made us people looking at the big screen left right up down so quickly causing the whole movie t be so Furious getting. i gave her a -.- look heh. then HongKong DimSum at Little India at 3am drop dead tired alrdy but just for the XiaoLongBaos we made it thr hahaha. hmmz so ok, i was at India ytd midnight wanted something new so i went t Bangkok this afternoon, Golden Mile Shopping mall? i think so. the supermarket infested w loads of Thai oriental food i tell you its very not appetizing and very salted smell everywhr i wanted t get out so badly but Nya-Nya and Aunty Wendy spent 1 hour thr luckily at least they still buy me my favourite Thai food and yay Aunty Wendy said t go t Bangkok again w me soon this year ahah very good

2009-04-07T00:53:00.004+08:00

oh-so-precious!

she loves t give this kind of ugly smiles HAHA

wileen oh wileen (:

korkor Wayne & meimei Wileen :D

one bad thing abt her is that she's super lazy!
HAHAHA look at her eyes!

倒带

2009-04-07T00:11:00.004+08:00

back. haha. hmmz has been heading aimlessly the past weeks, stayed over at Aunty Wendy's place the whole of last week at SengKang. cousin Wileen & Wayne kept me accompany at home after their school lol ahMa kept feeding me w food from day till night. Wileen's just 6years old she's super adorable i shall post her pictures soon, she fell down last tuesday afternoon when i was still sleeping her screams woke me, yuwen and brenda up gosh a deep cut on her mouth and her reaction when ahMa brought her t the doctor was, "doctor, i not pretty alrdy, how" hahaha how cute can she get and knowing that she will get MC she was on clouds nine but she kept telling everyone that she's not pretty alrdy heh she even asked me t ganged up w her t bully her brother, Wayne. damn hilarious. entertainment that whole week w Wileen. hmmz toy cars, cartoon network, disney channel, nickelodeon, dominos, Wii hmmz woah i want more of that haha

had steamboat dinner at Bugis w Aunty Wendy, Yuwen and Brenda last Friday we ate as if 10 days never eat and we had heart-t-heart talks i love that kind of get together w them. shopped around Bugis Street hehe Aunty Wendy bought me clothes, leggings, belt hahaha then went t have Desserts at near TanQueeLan street woah very bery fulling by then lol

went t Temple last Sunday t visit ah Gong hmmz i miss him so much so much so much ):
late afternoon went over t Kallang Leisure Park, Aunty Wendy brought me t have our nails pampered. i did French Manicure woah i'm lovin' it HAHAHA

hmmz today, Monday, met up w TienTien and Jack for PartyWorld session from 4-8pm at Loyang Point. going thr reminds me of us, yes you, my ah DD. hmmz. anyway i bought Tien a birthday gift and a helium foil balloon for her coming birthday and surprise her w it today at the bubble tea shop heh she'll be in HongKong on her Birthday so i had it advance for her :D

facebook games are super addictive i got hooked up by it every single night lol but i still want t play L4D ah who wants t go play w me lol oh ya and Loco Roco i got addicted by that game too hahaha. hmmz shit school's starting in next next week ): very reluctant t go

2009-03-31T03:05:00.003+08:00

dear lord Jesus,
help get me back t whr i'm supposed t be, i'm sorry i walked back t whr i shouldnt and made myself feels like some shit again i'm truly sorry can i get back what's used t be? let the future comes nearer i always needed P but now i couldnt i hope you'll continue t give me the courage determination and love. thankyou and sorry
in Jesus name i pray, Amen

you were never like that

2009-03-31T02:10:00.003+08:00

go ahead -.-
ok i'm the biggest fool. good game

2009-03-30T23:52:00.004+08:00

oh i is so happy mann
fish you, cheese piez -.-

heart's in a whirl, woah

2009-03-29T19:38:00.002+08:00

slept only in the morning for past 3 days i is still very tiredz but i wish t go out w them again haha went t Jodie's rescue ytd night then D came t find me at midnight went t hav supper again at 444 did nothing the whole night i slept at some place then home at 8am i slept again heh hmmz i wanted t talk t you but you were so so so busy w the screen and keyboard -.-

i thot by this way, we could stay closer

2009-03-27T21:00:00.003+08:00

i ton my night away ytd w most impt cum best friend and many more hahaha it's been some months i had an enjoyable night Quek is very bery funny w words oh ya i show off my Korean speaking t them ytd of course i manage t make them LOL hehe i still need t brush up on my Thai HAHAHA and and and WE ATE ALOT OF FOOD LAST MIDNIGHT heh Quek praised me for being able t eat and eat and eat lol all the way till 6am then home sweet home very sadly i fell asleep didnt manage t wakeup for fitness this morning so sinful tsk haha got woken up by Jiaxin's sms at 1pm guess what we did this afternoon... hmmz we had Sakae Sushi Buffet cool mann lol fats in me are multiplying freely hahaha but we had a good catch up this afternoon we laughed as if we're the only customers heh Skyway then came t pick her up and i waited for Brenda and Yuwen t pick me up. fetch Wayne and Wileen for photo taking, cycling, feeding pony woah damn tiredz

i shall go play Bejeweled Blitz now Brenda haolian t me that she broke my high score record tsk tsk heh hmmz i wonder what fun i'll hav tonight :D

somebody's hiding somethings from me ):

2009-03-26T02:03:00.003+08:00

finally i reached home yes now 2am very super tiredz went for a late night movie w yuwen and brenda we caught "confessions of a shopaholic" damn hilarious ate damn alot today both of them keeps asking me t eat saying they are very hungry and of course i always get tempted tsk tsk hahaha workout today is fun w laughters but my knees hurt like as if elephant stepping on it T.T couldnt meet up w my girlies tmr very upset i had t change plan very reluctant actually i thot i can get away from fitness hehe oh wellz most impt cum best friend didnt call i kept staring at my phone i think the screen gonna crack soon sigh bad habit is backkk

hmmz i shall go play bejeweled on facebook now i wan t break the record HAHAHA aunty wendy very haolian that she can gets high high scores lol hmmz then check out my farm mayb i shall proceed w fighting the mafias hehe ok i is bo liaosxz i know

when God created human beings, he creates only Adam & Eve. maybe that's why there's always no room for a 3rd party in a relationship

2009-03-25T01:08:00.004+08:00

currently at yuwen house i cant get t sleep yuwen and brenda are snoring like pigs behind me hehe they were lazy t drive me home just now so i had t stay over tsk but we had a fun time guess the sketch challenge and the bejeweled blitz woah facebook's fun lol

ok i'm a happy girl for the past few days i met my most impt cum best friend and i met many friends they brought me t farmway t get chase by dogs and police car lol but i was lucky i dont hav t cycle hehe the way we chiong t flee away was so much fun and in order not t get screened we even had t go thru that dark small path damn adventurous lol hmmz went t bugis t acc Jiaxin when i'm free for lunch then last sat went t hav supper aiyaya i just keep eating hehe

finally went for fitness ytd woah very tiring damn hungry i ate again when i reached home ): today went t london weight management sigh i want money money i think i gonna work for papa soon hopes papa gets us t go t work real soon! economy is bad, business is bad too ): so sad why why why how i wish i'm capable of earning more money for me, for you, for dearests...

school's starting in another 25 days i think damnit i'm so afraid of going t school actually she wont be there t pick me up anymore tsk why do i hav t be alone i miss those days phew i restricted myself from using the computer recently i noticed something's wrong haha i didnt wan t view blogs becuz i would always blog hop that's bad i've got itchy hands/fingers/eyes lol lol lol i need t stay happy it's better not t know anything sigh hmmz sometimes i wonder whether t rebut on what i'm unhappy about or just shutup hmmz ok fine i'm not say unhappy mayb not satisfied hmmz, as long as i'm not forgotten, i'm being remembered i think that's best?

i miss you, i miss van, i miss jo, i miss sande, i miss mils, i miss b
i suddenly lose contact from them i felt remorseful i had bad time management recently i felt so busy but in fact i was doing nothing tsk whr's everyone? haha mayb i should say whr am i why didnt i appear in front of them when i had time hmmz

i dont feel like slacking but i'm just so lazy. i think i've forget about M. lol not fated probably but what's fate? do we create the chance for ourselves or just depend on fate and just wait as everything's planned way before we knew anything?

i wish t rewind time back, just back t year 2007 i think i was happiest then...

2009-03-18T14:46:00.002+08:00

心很空天很大云很重, 我很孤单却赶不走
捧着她的名字她的喜怒哀乐, 往前走多久了

一个人心中只有一个宝贝, 久了之后她变成了眼泪
泪一滴在左手凝固成为寂寞, 往回看有什么

那女孩对我说保护她的梦, 说这个世界对她这样的不多
她渐渐忘了我, 但是她并不晓得遍体鳞伤的我一天也没再爱过
那女孩对我说说我是一个小偷, 偷她的回忆塞进我的脑海中
我不需要自由, 只想背着她的梦, 一步步向前走, 她给的永远不重

2009-03-17T13:50:00.002+08:00

i've got my answers i've got what i want
the feeling's oh-so-nice

i fell sick ytd vomited out whatever i eat. the minute i eat or drink something i'll vomit it out the next moment tsk but i still pull myself up and went t accompany Jiaxin for lunch at Bugis phew we ate Pasta and i vomitted all out when i reach CDC as i was having lesson ytd evening all the bus rides and train rides makes me drowsy. driving ytd was cool i drove all the way out t Bedok then t Tampines hehehe my instructor says he's having a hard time sitting beside me in the car becuz i didnt care looking t my left and right when i turn lol i almost banged into some ppl's car door when they opened hahaha but ok la my instructor's very nice t me he likes t joke on how i locked my hands on the steering wheels. bused home after lesson didnt head down Teddie's reached home vomitted again i tell you whole of ytd night is horrible terrible vegetable

what goes around comes around

2009-03-16T21:51:00.001+08:00

2009-03-14T23:32:00.000+08:00

teddie's tonight HAHAHA

2009-03-14T01:27:00.000+08:00

when will the next Wonder appear again
str8 or ~~str8~~

i doubt, myself

2009-03-14T01:17:00.003+08:00

hypocrites / pretender
it's always appearing.
am i myself, a hypocrite or pretender too?
or everyone actually is?

karma oh karma. sighhh

2009-03-12T11:58:00.002+08:00

hehe past 2weeks is hectic very bery tiredz. i went fitness but ate even more everyday i gain some kgs i look like a ball now i need t deflate hahaha

hmmz met up w Tien and her sister and their boyfriends last Sunday we had Popeyes at Terminal3, now tell me how not t gain weight but it was a nice supper afterall lol then back t Tien's place i got so boredddd i was exhilarated when they finally wanted t go prawning at TownPark heh i wasnt very patience that night i gave up after i think 2 hours but there's this very nice Uncle who ask me t try a last time, i caught a prawn within 1 minute then i is happy like siao lol

met up w Jiaxin Skyway and friends on Monday night at 444, managed t saw Phebe and the rest. hmmz haha i got teased by Skyway, very very embarassing how i wish i could dig a hole right then and hide lol. hiak, dreams dreams pls come true hahaha. too bad, M wasnt free t come down that Monday night HAHAHAH.

i had my very first driving lesson on Tuesday late evening i is like gan chiong spider very bery eggcited i went out on the roads and back t the circuits, i think my Instructor almost had a heart attack by me he keep asking me t turn faster it was red light alrdy i happily slowly steer the steering wheels i just thought i was driving Daytona in the Arcade lol, he just said "faster, faster!, faster!!" repeatedly each turns i take hahaha. went t watch Marley and Me after driving it's a nice show though i wasnt really a dog lover, Brenda and Yuwen even cried very badly hahaha i only had small drops of tears flowing out lol

k, i skipped fitness today couldnt wakeup tsk very sinful i'm so bored at home now driving only starts at 7pm today grrr who wants t meet me hehehe

2009-03-12T11:54:00.001+08:00

going t Jiaxin & Skyway's wedding

papa bought a bao this biggg hehe

2009-02-25T23:29:00.002+08:00

yay yay the very clever me passed my FTT and got a PDL i can drive out of the circuits alrdy hehe. hmmz then went Parkmall for Yoga and the very unlucky me injured my thigh the whole notice-board drop down all of a sudden when Yuwen, Brenda and I was looking at the schedules. it hit my thigh and a gigantic blueblack forms up almost immediately very extremely painful i is brave i didnt cry hahaha see my blueblack and you can imagine the pain alrdy, it's really ugly & disgusting :O so of course i starts t hate Parkmall so we quickly went back t Bugis, weight lifting today is power pac i feel like chopping off my arms hahaha

hmmz i dont understand why human beings hav t change and react so suddenly differently it's like why cant human beings stay t each of their own personalities for mayb a lifetime i feel all hav split personalities all of a sudden haha i dont undertsand myself being who i am either, strange

i was out on the streets whole day i thot i would bumped into you but just didnt managed t i think you're nice & i miss you but i should just forget about see-ing you ever again unless fairytales still exist hahahahahaha.

2009-02-24T23:59:00.002+08:00

i went for e-Trial this morning i think i'm gona fail my FTT tmr i sucks at test & exams, Yuwen and I thinks that it's like taking O'level HAHAHA and Brenda starts haolian-ing saying it's damn easy it's been 4years she got her license lol ok back t main point, i need t study, what half-clutch what demerit points what up slope downhill omg ): hmmz den back t Amore at 3pm just now did weight lifting & aerobics, i nearly wanted t kill myself HAHAHA then caught a 9.20pm show at E!Hub, "he's just not that into you". it's a really nice show i think someone's telling me something that i should just forget about seeing M. again lol but it's somehow contradicting at the end, it says never give up! on what you exactly intended t do, lol

crush

2009-02-24T00:00:00.002+08:00

i dont think that i'll get t see you again ):
tsk tsk tsk
M.

you got me hypnotized, so mesmerized

2009-02-23T22:55:00.002+08:00

i hope t see you again, M.
:DDDDDD

came home quite late ytd night from Jiaxin's wedding dinner so i skipped e-Trial this morning damn tiredz then same old routine went t Parkmall for kick-boxing & hip-hop and then t Bugis for more workouts my stomach pain i nearly collasped phew had dinner and trained back t Pasirris, dropped by Teddie's for awhile then i went home. so many weird people i see today i dont feel good... many are not like how we see them, i think communications is very super important. hmmz spoils my mood a lil tsk

i keep thinking about you the whole day today hahaha it's been awhile i got this feeling i regretted not being a lil more brave i dont know how t look for you now, my heart's in a whirl i hope a miracle befall upon me i dont want t lose this precious chance hahahaha i want t grab hold of it :D

2009-02-22T11:32:00.006+08:00

i joined the Amore Fitness a week ago w Yuwen & Brenda and the workouts & dance class nearly killed me HAHAHA kick-boxing, aerobics, latin dance, lift weights like siao and many many more other workouts, i need t lose weight badly :O

went busking w Yuwen & Brenda too for the last 2days at OrchardRoad t sell our sculpturing balloons we managed t earn a lil. i know how t twist & turn ballons alrdy i'm so proud of myself HAHAHA soon i'm going t apply for that busking license i'm the only one w/o it. hmm tsk, FTT next wednesday & i know nothing about it ):

ok, back-track t Valentine's Day...
on 14th Feb 09, Yuwen, Brenda & I went t did a decoration for a couple at Pan Pacific Hotel. haha I had fun there I keep messing things up. That bung really treats her girl damn nice...

just look at all those balloons on the floor and in the background of those photos! we did all that, ok actually mostly is done by Yuwen & Brenda, i only keep messing around the whole room! HAHAHA. i'm lovin' it! that bung has become OUR favourite lol. hmm so after the decorations we head down t Town, i see all the couples tgt the girls all holding flowers or some gifts makes me feel so jealous! HAHAHA but still i enjoyed this year's Valentine's Day

this is a long post i shall end here.
i'm going down t Jiaxin & Skyway's wedding dinner in the evening later :D

2009-02-19T12:32:00.001+08:00

i LOVE my dimple hahahahaha

2009-02-18T21:01:00.001+08:00

why aren't you calling me, anymore?

Just Pretend that I'm Not Waiting ok

2009-02-13T23:55:00.002+08:00

that's it. Goodbye
I Love You, Darling

2009-02-12T19:05:00.002+08:00

jus came back from ChinChin's place t meet her & Alicia
ChinChin gave me 1 choc for V.Day lol thankyou :D

b!tch

2009-02-12T11:52:00.001+08:00

get a life
just mind your own business
mayb the one beside you might just backstab you, i'm reminding you
i dont any-oh-how spread tales without logic/ facts/ evidence
dont think that i always keep quiet and nth will happen
you can try me mann
i din step on your tail so you better dont too

Homie, Lover, Close Friend

2009-02-12T11:22:00.005+08:00

i finally poured out whatever i wanted t say ytd night. another long teary night i couldnt even get t sleep tsk. though's the situation is different now but those words and promises still linger within me but i wouldnt want t forget abt it becuase that's what i got left w me now and nothing else, no amount of friends is enough t replace you. but but but you can dont hav t bother abt anymore promises you made t me before, now, but perhaps mayb in future then we fulfill it or perhaps mayb we wont rmb abt it anymore the next time we get together or perhaps mayb we dont even hav a happy ending tgt, like you said nobody knows... i chose not t forget i chose t hold on i jus need you t be there when i need you, you're a gd girlfriend afterall.

2009-02-11T23:59:00.004+08:00

so fast 12am. i just reached home. tiredz. picked ChinChin up from school, ~~happen t see Sam & Mich outside Loyang too and they like stare stare as i was alone ): i dont like ok~~. hmmz then went t ChinChin house then we went out at around 3pm plus t meet Amanda & SiChun at Tampines then went t SiChun house for Mahjong grr Chin kept winning hahaha and SiChun lost all the chips she had, t us lol. suppose t go home alrdy but in the end Chin and i went up dar's place t help phyllis w her school workkk but dar not home yet didnt get t see her hmmz

whr shall i go tmr
gd nighttt ):

~~the two of you will last long, i cannot take it i dont know how. i wish t go blind deaf mute i hate my instincts~~

dreams

2009-02-11T00:59:00.004+08:00

ohk i cant get t sleep, as usual, mayb i need t buy some pills real soon tsk hmmz i just studied 2 Thai lyrics woah very nice hehe hmmz i want t go holidayyy who is very free t go w me lol hmmz den i wish i can get t sleep so t dream of you hahaha something nice mayb hmmz i laughed when i saw just the word "b!tch" sent by one of my lovelys this afternoon regarding something hahaha lol hmmz i want a new phone that new precious still not out in shops yet tsk tsk tsk i is bored...

pls dont keep everything t youself, please

2009-02-10T23:40:00.006+08:00

went t PartyWorld KTV w TienTien & Jack this afternoon then ChinChin came t look for me and we went t have dinner tgt had a super filling dinner haha we feel as if we were 2 t 3 months pregnant after dinner hmmz hiak very tiredz today how long more mayb another 1 year i guess. tiredz, very...

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息

最怕突然听到你的消息
想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们那麽甜那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去

lady luck

2009-02-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

it's the last day of cny so we all went Ma-Ma's house for dinner hehe i gobbled down most of the Abalones. after dinner everyone suggested gambling again so tadah! i was the winner of the day i won 60$ i keep getting all the aces kings queens tens continuously lol how nice if i'm so lucky everyday ok i shall not be greedy HAHAHA. yuwen den wanted movies so brenda drove yuwen, bird, brother and i to E!Hub but no nice show was screening so off we went t ChangiVillage for DimSum and sight-seeing lol chill-ed at one of those coffee-shops w hot gossips within our family, yes we're cousins except brenda but she's alrdy like one of us, she's lucky or should i say yuwen's lucky that Ma-Ma sort of accepted brenda hahaha. how i wish Ma-Ma get t know phebe too lol hmmz so we went home at around 3am :D

chan rak khun

2009-02-09T14:17:00.003+08:00

i skipped the trip t Novena Square later it's veli beli far plus Brother took my mp3 out w/o telling me before-hand tsk tsk. i was picking up some Thai language learning HAHA now i wan t give up alrdy. i wan a holiday trip who wan t accompany me hehe

going out w my Nya-Nya soon t look for my oh-so-adorable Ma-Ma :D

14th Feb, dont ever arrive this year HAHAHA
everyone pls just give it a miss

2009-02-08T15:33:00.000+08:00

i hate, 7th February )':

"Sorry" ?

2009-02-08T15:12:00.003+08:00

got woken up by a call and clumsily rushed of out house 3am in the morning phew felt as if i sat in some rocket and reached townpark, Teddie's, ytd was shit i dont know why i flew down asap and got t know actually you called for another girl too i dont know why you reacted that way another drama-mama day hope you know what you're doing ytd thankyou for the nighttt sigh

Yingying, you're a fucking loser

2009-02-08T00:42:00.002+08:00

i seriously hate myself at times T.T

I'm tryna be strong
But the strength I have is washing away
It wont be long
Before I get you by my side
And just hold you, tease you, squeeze you
Tell you what's been on my mind

Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

Dar I know mistakes were made between us two
And we show our eyes that night
Even said somethings weren't true
Why'd you go?
Why can't it be the way it was?
Cos you were my homie, lover and friend

I can't lie
I miss you much
Watching everyday that goes by
I miss you much
Until I get you back I'm gonna try
Yes I miss you much
You are the apple of my eye
Dar I miss you much, very much

Heartache, very very much

2009-02-08T00:03:00.004+08:00

i've got alot of pictures, i'll post them soon, today's not the day HAHA.

I HAD A BAD DAY ):

home alone now luckily Brother got whole lot of sad songs for me in the desktop i'm blasting music woah whole house like trembling my ear drums are bursting lol
i doubt you'll ever come here again?
my Fairytale lasted only 1 day after 8/9 months, so sad so sad. haha ChinChin even said i smiled from the bottom of my heart ytd after so damn long. today very not happy hmm yes very upset. luckily Cute came t my rescue. a tree was hit by me, i'm sorry. Teddie's has become my crying spot ok it'll end today hahaha.

very very tiredz physically mentally emotionally
dont know what t type very confused

thankyou for the 1 whole night/day w me after so long. i mean what i say i hope you'll keep one last thing t me, that's contact me. gd luckkk T.T i'm just a call away, pls take extra care

gd nighttt )':

2009-02-02T22:34:00.004+08:00

i finally got my sim card! but can only activate tmr morning -.- i got eggcited for nothing. another gd news, jodie's not going anywhr alrdy :D hahaha and i spotted a new precious i will get it home soon hehe

2009-02-02T01:18:00.004+08:00

fix it?
"I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay"

i need t do something t my hair again hahaha mayb shave botak nice one right ohk im trying t be funny just imagine me w no hair so bald my head hahaha. i'm still missing my precious how i wish i can bring my house cordless phone out aiyaya i saw what i shouldnt, i know what i shouldnt again tsk. how i wish my house phone can send sms hahaha i'm trying t be funny again hehe i feel like drinking smoothies now mayb tmr i mean later when i wakeup to meet mils he better meet me hmm very bored now hmmz i shall vanished nowsxz...

2009-02-01T22:47:00.002+08:00

dad's busy t get me my sim card and new phone and i dont know which phone t buy, my n73 extinct alrdy, good game mann why do you hav t take my phone away my phone's worthless leh i hate euusxz veli beli muchz T.T now i couldn't contact anyone i feel as if i'm in MARS alone i wan a new precious soon ):

2009-01-31T23:29:00.009+08:00

this few days had been super emotional why why why one left after another the ppl around me gets lesser and lesser ): i saw Cute's blog i almost teared.

Darling

Phebe & I seems t hav become some history but somehow i couldn't help it but think abt it, cry out loud abt it, keep wanting everything t go back t how it's used t be that nice friendly cosy group of friends w phebe & i. i always thot i didnt do anything wrong t her if i were good she wouldn't even leave me i'm just nothing compared t the others girls she had i admit i put everything whole-heartedly in that special relationship w her but she gave it up. i thot i will be fine after a month or two but nope, i'm still stuck after 8months of waiting but she didnt care much abt me i guess she went w other girls a few times alrdy. i thot to myself thinking it's ok let her be but sometimes the things she said t me holds me back again i thot she still cares or mayb she really care but she didnt want t show it t me or even mayb i was just hallucinating again. why must promises be broken den why the hell call it promises? what's the meaning of the word promise? why have such thing as people changes as time goes by? you said ytd that i knew you the best among all it's 1year we're tgt do you know how happy i was? you asked why dont i just go away w someone else, dont you uds me dont you know how a person i am? i said i dont care alrdy, i said i dont feel anything when you walked by w Sam, when you cuddle Sam, when you had your hands on Sam, when you hug Zoey, when you cuddle Serene, when you hold Celestine's hand, when you get close w Sixian. i saw it almost all i was told t be strong but anyone who knows me best will know that i'm not someone who's so strong i'm only good at ignorance trying my best t keep away from you so you wont hav t worry which girl you should accompany trying my best way t keep you happy. yes, many may say what i'm doing now is redundant i shouldnt do all this at all but i cant help it i fell too deep i doubt anyone would fell this deep. even if anyone of you fell, i'm sure the one you love will know but mine? no she'll never know )': i'm supposed t leave i said i lost you forever but i still want you Love.

JODIE, YINGYING & VANESSA

we named ourselves the PPGs we talked abt anything under the sun cloud moon stars we were close sisters right? we always tried t spend beautiful time tgt but as time goes by we get into different situations and friends and got lesser time for one another even may have misunderstandings it's super rare but i dont feel good t quarrel w either one of them. they were there thru my suckiest point of life. suddenly heard from Jodie that she may be leaving for US for studies my heart sank it's like another dearest leaving me i hope things will change i hope there will be other ways t study here in S'pore i hope things will be like fairytale for us... i miss the two of them super duper alot )':

i've been having Kaven accompany me this few days i really appreciate i hope she wont walked out on me too i swear i wont you dont worry ok we'll be god-sisters for life dont you ever forget abt me. i promise you i'll try t move on i'll try i dont know if it'll works. thankyou ChinChin.

Milstein Lam YL

hi best buddy i got too much t say t you i know you've always been there never fail dont you ever disappeared from me hopes you stop bullying me hopes you get a better girl yourself stop emo-ing ok i know i am now but it's just once in a blue moon ok i hope you wont hav t go into Army so soon ):

i miss Sande's accompany. i wont ever forget how she get thru my day w me at MacDonald's when i lost Phebe ): sighhh. xie xie ni. Darrel went in last Thursday alrdy i want t talk to you faster come out plsss, 3weeks very long ): all my heartfelt words a lil too emotional i should stop i thot this Ox year would be good t me...

2009-01-31T14:02:00.002+08:00

ytd night was very dramatic and I LOST MY PRECIOUS PHONE WHEN I WENT T THE TOILET SOME IDIOT TOOK IT FROM MY TABLE AND WE SUSPECT IT'S SOME ASSHOLE NAMED, DOMINIC, THANKYOU VERY NICE FOR TAKING MY PHONE, I WANT T LET YOU NOT HAVE ANY GOOD TIME HANGING AROUND PASIR RIS. NO ONE ELSE EXCEPT HIM WAS SUSPECTED BECAUSE HE STOLE HANDPHONES TWICE AT 418 AND NICE ONE HE DIDNT DARE T COME DOWN YTD KEEP SAYING HE DIDNT TAKE IT. CONCLUSION I HAD T TAKE IT THAT IT'S DOWN ON MY LUCK YTD NIGHT MY PHONE CUI UNTIL CANNOT CUI I DONT KNOW WHY THAT IDIONT HAVE T TAKE IT. i cried her a river ytd haha everyone snatching her away from me how nice i was told t play go ahead and play play play ):

thankyou chinchin, zhilin, dickson and andrew for ytd

2009-01-30T10:42:00.004+08:00

i cant rmb what i did the past few days hahaha i talked i laughed i sing i cried i blabber nonsense i i i dont rmb what alrdy so far so good oh ya i rmb seeing you & her tgt a thousand times lol good game. lady luck wasnt on my side when i was playing cards at 418 my money all gone but nvm at least at the Mahjong table i won some chips hahaha how nice would it be if it's real notes angbao collecting was so-so wasn't what i expected hehe and oh ya i passed my basic theory :D up next is final theory woah eggcited :D uncle's place for dinner later & probably Teddie's at night w ChinChin haha i want t drink smoothiessssss oh ya oh ya one more thing HAHAHA i realized i've got handsome cousin woah how i wish we're not cousins lol i thought too much but he's really nice and hmm very shuai lol i even took a picture w him damn close that kind i'll go search for the photoz first hehehe

2009-01-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

met up w Amanda & Kaven t RP on friday and idiotic B didnt wan t come down and meet me hehe after that we went cityhall and the Marina Square t shop while ChinChin went t her ahMa house for reunion dinner den we met up w her again later at night and we went Teddie's t drink hahaha i saw my 'old friends' and tat fatt still loves t pinch my cheeks lol after that t time park i saw you woah you are different alrdy you didnt wan t send me home anymore so i went home at around 4am plus damn tiredz & i got a new friend, Raychel, she's sweet and nice :D

on saturday i met Kaven again for lunch w Darrel and we went t Loyang Point t meet some stalker wah she damn disgusting sick in the mind ahhh we were trying t talk t her wah she keep on dont wan t open her mouth as if inside got gold quite a commotion at town park and ChinChin fought w her. tientien and jack came t find us too after that back t downtown i saw you and her again at BurgerKing you are still different i act as if i'm ok but ohk la i'm really fine hahaha no arcade on sat cuz it was late alrdy and we were somehow tiredz so we chilled at coffeeshop den back t townpark t drink again. ChinChin nd i got so hungry i even dig for coins just t buy a BIG PAO lol damn pathetic very long never like that alrdy we dont even hav moolah t eat lol in the end we had t somehow 'cheat' $$$ hahaha home at 3am i think another fun and tiredz day :D

i did spring cleaning at home today woah help me t jian fei hahahaha den at night ChinChin treat me t arcade i had fun again thankyou hehe

i saw you consecutively for 3 days omgsxz
i is happy actually
i wish you gd luck w her

HAPPY 牛 YEAR :D

I've forever lost you

2009-01-22T03:45:00.000+08:00

today's like one of those scary days when you left me and never return
at least you recognize it's me who ran away just now, i thot you'll never ever realized thankyou for the lovely messages

2009-01-21T20:37:00.002+08:00

ytd met up w Aloysius Jack & TienTien at 444 but we soon head down for Downtown when Aloy left. they had dinner at kfc then we arcade-ed like small kidz it was damn fun like how i did tgt w Jiaxin the previous day lol arcade do makes my life a lil happier. we chilled & slacked w jokes and riddles HAHAHA another super duper cold dayyy

having e-Trial tmr and Friday I'm eggcited next week pls arrive a lil quicker :D

2009-01-20T10:20:00.003+08:00

" Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. "

" Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back. Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong. "

i saw that 2 para from a friend's blog so true so true...
but still, whr'd you go i miss you so

2009-01-19T01:35:00.000+08:00

went out last minute t meet Jiaxin & Skyway for dinner at some HongKong cafe lol they are a funny pair tgt after dinner we went Arcade-ing and then we enjoyed a super duper boring movie, Passengers, omg the show very not nice then supper again at 444 we headed t Mustafa soon after HAHAHA we see alot of ahpunehneh extremely many then that's when you suddenly called i was very surprised there must be a blue moon tonight...

I'm ok w it, you're just a nobody go on w your doings may god bless you i'm sure one day you wont even get what you want you dont bring me down so what if you hav bigger boobs than me so what if you're slimmer than me what other credits do you hav continue t hurt my dear friends mayb you should just sit back and wait for your consequences pay-back time you ain't any angel you're fucking fake please dont forget how you managed t get close t every single one of them? i treat you as a gd friend once but you just love t backstab me go ahead you're their eye-candy now very gd you did it if today's the end of the world i would want t not let you hav one gd last day i see your true colours that's why i abhor you

2009-01-18T14:16:00.003+08:00

wokeup super duper early ytd and headed t Amanda's place w ChinChin. baking session w them for Kim's birthday and we started cutting hairs lol i look so omgsxz, i saw Colin at PasirrisPark ytd and i even chose t ignore HAHAHA. he told ChinChin "that stupid girl gave me a stupid look and walked past me" lol obviously that stupid girl is me heh. so bbq the whole night till the wee hours i is very tired alrdy so we went home at mayb 3am? i cant rmb. no pictures ): my phone's batt was dead flat since afternoon. had a Pikachu kite and ChinChin taught it some flying skills damn hilarious fun all day woah

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KIM :D

star & rose, whr are the both of you? i miss you two

/edited
i went t meet Milstein Lam he bullied me the whole day how very nice and made me went home myself :@ HAHAHA sushi buffet as he says he was hungry lol i ordered 8 salmon nigiri for him i want him t grow fatter than me and lmao he really finished it after that proceeded for more window shopping as he wants t see cai cai wahlao he keeps saying he looks like JayChou i nearly puke HAHAHHA asking me t take pictures of his cute face. and idiot, i dont hav t do something that's only in fashion ohk lol.

2009-01-15T12:19:00.001+08:00

i had a dream about you but i force myself awake when i see your face because i wouldnt wan t know what's next cuz nothing works out right for us this moment...

2009-01-14T20:03:00.000+08:00

spent another day at Sande's place. tv-ed and Mahjong-ed of course before i went home in the evening hehe. baby Bernice is growing growing so different alrdy oh-so-cute lehhh lol but i still wont wan t give birth t one HAHAHA just imagine the pregnancy period woah it might just kill me.

i spent 2days wonderfully, i wan more wonders plssssssss

2009-01-13T04:30:00.001+08:00

i went shopping w Sande & Raine today finally got outta my house i felt so nice. i spent a very long time choosing for just 1top haha i was being choosy today i think they couldnt tahan me lol. so we decided t pamper ourselves we went t do Manicure woah I'm lovin' it HAHAHA i've got nice nails hehe. back t Sande's place for dinner and she taught me how t Mahjong so we Mahjong-ed till 3/4am i is fast learner ohk lol but out of so many thousand rounds we played thru the night I only managed t win ONE game. very bery good rightsxz HAHAHA

more Mahjong session plsssssssss :D

no pictures so boring

2009-01-11T13:50:00.002+08:00

was w chinchin, kim & amanda ytd midnight. we played cards they drank liquor and i drank ribena HAHAHA. didnt know amanda sucha talent in cross-stitching woah she did plenty of it i wants t learn from her lol cheated in the game CHEAT it was damn funny i got the whole deck of cards for the 1st round so we played cards cards cards & more cards till 2.30 den after that home sweet home. i heard screams again when i was about t sleep they must be downstairs again omg effing noisy...

supposed t go tattoo exhibition but someone says it's too squeezy in there so we gave it a miss. bye Miami Ink lol

nightmares flooded me ytd night
is it how it's supposed t be?

stay close pls..

2009-01-09T14:15:00.005+08:00

i need happy juice
i'm bad

2009-01-07T14:11:00.001+08:00

tell me about it if you are i am guilty because the situation was sucha coincidence i didnt call you up again that night

2009-01-05T22:28:00.004+08:00

i feel awful i dont know who t call t cry and talk t i dont know who can be w me right now i dont wan t miss you tonight i cant get t sleep i wan t vomit out everything i eat and never eat again i dont believe i cant slim down i dont believe only you are pretty and slim i need some help whr is everyone i dont know i dont know i need t cry i need t knock out and never awake thankyou very nice my friend said life fucks everyone i think it's somehow so true whr are you you you and you ))))))))))))):

human beings are selfish creatures?

2009-01-05T15:34:00.006+08:00

i went out again last night and now i'm still dead tired. they changed their mind didnt wan t go home early so chilled at 444, some blks and even played Hopscotch at 427 playground at 2am it was hilarious they say it's t cut down my wobbly fats for me HAHAHA. nigel's jokes are getting more & more interesting each day lol just by keeping quiet you'll also feel the joy.

i dont know why you're avoiding me is it something you did wrong or is it you're on purpose you wont want t see me ever again what is you will call me what is you will meet me oh my i think i was a joke for everyone t enjoy? you choose t ignore and went ahead enjoying and all the things you did is so not you or are you going t tell me yes that's you all along what is let's just be friends but seems like you dont even want it t happen. Leavin'..

i finally know what's my new year resolution

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed.

2009-01-04T14:48:00.008+08:00

still you never said goodbye & now i know how far you'd go

i met up w ChinChin Husband ytd night we went t hav supper HAHA and manged t find out a lot more gossip news of course I couldnt take it but ahhh nvm. received surprising sms and saw familiar faces. continue slacking w Zhilin Moses and all. i would like t hav more of this for sure :D

Define Make-out
Define Happening
Define Play
Define Don't wan t go into a relationship
Define You will call me

get drunk and then make-out, is that th coolest thing you feel now?!
get drunk, that's the reason?

Hi 2009

2009-01-01T16:44:00.001+08:00

mixed feelings
i should hav just stayed home that night HAHA

p.s. I miss You

2008-12-31T01:09:00.005+08:00

why why why???

start counting down for the NewYear peeps :D
whr shall I go later. I is very poor thingz
I cant get t sleep I keep missing

whr'd you go???

1 more day

2008-12-30T14:16:00.002+08:00

i met up w some lovely(s) and ahbengz HAHA ytd night it was a last min thing but we had a nice gather. had supper and went over t my blk t slack slack and slack all the talking about Love and see how they always quarrel w one another. but 1 thing i gotta say is that omg they some become so ahbengz it wasn't very nice. late night chat w the M&M ( Mark and Moses ) till 4am den i went home knock off almost str8 away and snored like piggg.

gd luck ah still dont wan t give me back my essential needs i pray you get more gd lucks tsk tsk
force me t curse make me so sinful. sigh why why why like that

insomnia ):

2008-12-29T22:33:00.003+08:00

i've been staying up late till 6am in the morning watching L word before going t bed but i still wokeup before 12pm my day seems so long, 24hrs a day seems t be too much for me HAHA. met up w Charlotte for a lil while this afternoon it's nice t see her again we managed t catch-up a lil while wating for bus. jobs enquiries wasn't very successful got rejected a few times tsk tsk. 2 more days t Year 2009, quickly come quickly come. Facebook games are interesting i finally sign up an account for it, many must hav alrdy got sick of it HAHA. i got myself a yellow pet bumblebeebee :D

it's still not time yet ignorance still needs t take place

i'm not your dog, i'm not a fool

2008-12-27T23:45:00.003+08:00

i got tricked once, i wont fall for it a second time. I'm not stupid.
how ridiculous can this be. fuck it!
I'm so not going t be what oh-so-nice treating people so equally thinking that they will do the same nice things back t me they're just so realistic wth totally like two-headed snakes and monsters.

my day started off nice & pleasant i went for sun-tanning in the morning at some far away place was half-dead when i went back t ahma house i started eating and my STARVATION PLAN FAILED, ahma's cooking is always 10 000 times nicer & better than mum's haha i dont know why. i then went t see cars at some showroom woah i would like t quickly get my license. then, blah blah blah i spent the whole evening eating again

it's time for drama show

你不是我你怎么能体会，
你对我有多么珍贵

Christmas's finally over :D

2008-12-26T12:56:00.002+08:00

i went t ahma house early in the morning ytd, the weather's not too bad so i went for a swim trying t lose some calories but the bbq at night at Uncle's place restore all my calories back into my fatty body. how very nice right. all the chit-chatting and catching up w everyone not too bad it's nice t see my relatives again. heh

oh ya, Milstein's finally back from his Aussie trip but he didnt get me any presents tsk tsk ): HAHA he got too mesmerized & hypnotize by his OH-SO-HOT NEIGHBOUR. hehe

Starvation starts today, Day 1 HAHAHA

2008-12-25T01:35:00.004+08:00

Merry Christmas Earthlings :D
it was a surprise t receive your sms
Momo called too, i is happy abt this.

super late dinner at Swensen's at Terminal 3
but i enjoyed. I (L) my Family HAHAHA

2008-12-24T10:28:00.001+08:00

it's CHRISTMAS EVE today!
actually i was not looking forward t it. a big fat liar lied t me about wanting t celebrate Christmas w me but now, hopes crashed and gone. how nice. but on a lighter note, Papa decided t bring the whole family out for X'mas dinner later evening :D

someone's seems t be disappointed in me. he said what I'm doing now is so not me. i don't know, I hate the reality. anyway, thanks Momo.

oh yea, I'm finally taking my Basic Car Theory Test next year January and my Practical lessons starts next February. I'm so eggciteddd for it wonder how I'll fare. HAHAHA.

okok, i pray for a better Christmas next yearrrrrr
ppl hurry up give me back my money put it back into my pockets, no point ignoring my calls and everything. tyvm. i got the sudden urge t be a loan shark. ahhhhhh. i know, it's just my imagination. tsk. for now, money makes my world go round ):

你的回话凌乱著　在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽　甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯　我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱著歌　假装没事了

时间过了　走了　爱情面临选择
你冷了　倦了　我哭了
一开始的不快乐　你用卡片手写著
有些爱只给到这真的懂了

怎么了　你累了　说好的　幸福呢
我懂了　不说了　爱淡了　梦远了
开心与不开心　一一细数著　你再不捨
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻　我都还记得

你不等了　说好的　幸福呢
我错了　泪干了　放手了　后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转著　要怎么停呢

2008-12-23T16:40:00.000+08:00

i feel like skipping Christmas this year. HAHA

终于看开爱回不來　而我总是太晚明白　
最后才把话说开　哭着求你留下來
终于看开爱回不來　我们面前太多阻碍　
我的手卻放不开　宁愿沒出息求你別离开

过去甜蜜在倒帶　只是感觉已经不在
而我对你的期待　被你一次次摔坏　
已经碎成太多块　要怎么拼湊跟重来