this few days had been super emotional why why why one left after another the ppl around me gets lesser and lesser ): i saw Cute's blog i almost teared.

Darling

Phebe & I seems t hav become some history but somehow i couldn't help it but think abt it, cry out loud abt it, keep wanting everything t go back t how it's used t be that nice friendly cosy group of friends w phebe & i. i always thot i didnt do anything wrong t her if i were good she wouldn't even leave me i'm just nothing compared t the others girls she had i admit i put everything whole-heartedly in that special relationship w her but she gave it up. i thot i will be fine after a month or two but nope, i'm still stuck after 8months of waiting but she didnt care much abt me i guess she went w other girls a few times alrdy. i thot to myself thinking it's ok let her be but sometimes the things she said t me holds me back again i thot she still cares or mayb she really care but she didnt want t show it t me or even mayb i was just hallucinating again. why must promises be broken den why the hell call it promises? what's the meaning of the word promise? why have such thing as people changes as time goes by? you said ytd that i knew you the best among all it's 1year we're tgt do you know how happy i was? you asked why dont i just go away w someone else, dont you uds me dont you know how a person i am? i said i dont care alrdy, i said i dont feel anything when you walked by w Sam, when you cuddle Sam, when you had your hands on Sam, when you hug Zoey, when you cuddle Serene, when you hold Celestine's hand, when you get close w Sixian. i saw it almost all i was told t be strong but anyone who knows me best will know that i'm not someone who's so strong i'm only good at ignorance trying my best t keep away from you so you wont hav t worry which girl you should accompany trying my best way t keep you happy. yes, many may say what i'm doing now is redundant i shouldnt do all this at all but i cant help it i fell too deep i doubt anyone would fell this deep. even if anyone of you fell, i'm sure the one you love will know but mine? no she'll never know )': i'm supposed t leave i said i lost you forever but i still want you Love.

JODIE, YINGYING & VANESSA

we named ourselves the PPGs we talked abt anything under the sun cloud moon stars we were close sisters right? we always tried t spend beautiful time tgt but as time goes by we get into different situations and friends and got lesser time for one another even may have misunderstandings it's super rare but i dont feel good t quarrel w either one of them. they were there thru my suckiest point of life. suddenly heard from Jodie that she may be leaving for US for studies my heart sank it's like another dearest leaving me i hope things will change i hope there will be other ways t study here in S'pore i hope things will be like fairytale for us... i miss the two of them super duper alot )':

i've been having Kaven accompany me this few days i really appreciate i hope she wont walked out on me too i swear i wont you dont worry ok we'll be god-sisters for life dont you ever forget abt me. i promise you i'll try t move on i'll try i dont know if it'll works. thankyou ChinChin.

Milstein Lam YL

hi best buddy i got too much t say t you i know you've always been there never fail dont you ever disappeared from me hopes you stop bullying me hopes you get a better girl yourself stop emo-ing ok i know i am now but it's just once in a blue moon ok i hope you wont hav t go into Army so soon ):

i miss Sande's accompany. i wont ever forget how she get thru my day w me at MacDonald's when i lost Phebe ): sighhh. xie xie ni. Darrel went in last Thursday alrdy i want t talk to you faster come out plsss, 3weeks very long ): all my heartfelt words a lil too emotional i should stop i thot this Ox year would be good t me...